6.11.2017

978 Words and Love

It's hard to start from somewhere new. A person would want to carry on with what has been left unfinished. The warmth that one is familiar to, would seem much more appealing than an unknown new beginning. What I mean by this can be anything in your life. Though generally, stories which have been left unfinished have a share of this. The peak where passion and weakness reaches is broken. One day when discussing love, someone said "please write this" to me. As everyone's experiences of love are different, millions of definitions can be made of this subject. Is it not because of this that poems, stories, and myths about love are created by a never-ending source of creativity? The first rule is not to be afraid. Why is it that when people find something precious, instead of feeling excitement they are overcome by fear? The second is not being able to become complete. Even if you were to pass these two stages, you will struggle with the third. Forget. If you are lonely at the edge of a deep cliff, in between trying to forget and have already forgotten, then this means you have found love a long time ago and have lost it. Nature's magnificent law is heartless like this. Of course, rule two and three consist of "living". As this is a short trip within the spirit world, I do not feel there is any need to detail this further. Because within the real rules the dominant feelings consist of not being able to live. And this is exactly where love is hidden. It is those that we fit into our short lives; pushing away love into a corner after getting ourselves into an arm full of fuss but never ever being able to give up on it. That mysterious feeling... It's as scary as diving into the sea sunken in fog at twilight. Fighting in disguise... Whereas all the cards have been opened and you must have put your soul on the table a long time ago. You'll understand when your soul has been taken in control. If you want to live deeply, you must be willing to do so. What is most important is not that you take your soul back, but the ways you will find to purify it from all its pain. As it is with all topics, with this matter as well, that which is "natural" should be believed for its pureness and realness. There is no time to suffocate oneself into unnecessary detail. For the duration between the matters two and three are quite limited. Why is it that the time we reserve on shopping is more? Even the time spent on eating, sleeping, silliness, laziness and work. Why is it that when I go out, the faces that I see are so meaningless? Why is time spent on pointless conversations? What is the need for anger and insensitivity? Why can we not think more deeply? Is it because the future seems dark and frightening that we choose the easy path?  Life, marriage and relationships; I think it seems to consist of holding hands whilst window shopping, filling up the basket and having something to eat and drink. Because this is the only view I am able to see. The frenzy in consumption has become a serious distraction for the human race. Empty and meaningless staring eyes along with useless words....Are we turning into the living dead, with fake identities? Is simplicity this hard for us?  Aside from the human race, nature and everything to do with life continue in calmness and harmony. This is the love nature has for the world. Yet we are moulded by jealousy and greed, burning and tearing everything down. Within­­­ time, our memory forgets about timelessness. This is why we are not polite towards love anymore. This is why the love that once started with deep passionate feelings turns into indelicacy. Love has passed its shelf life and is a jar full of heartbreaks; only a little flavour of honey that is left in our taste buds. Where in our lives have we forgotten love? Are we able to remember? Maybe if we completely got rid of love's definition then we may encounter the simple truth. Because those who become motivated by greed and selfishness whilst clutching onto their desire are mistaken by love. Without the soul of the other emotions, it is a nothing all on its own. For instance, take a look at your closest friends. Those that you most love and admire about them, are actually traits that you would have most wanted to have yourself. Sincerity, success, confidence, joy...It's not having the same perspective in life that keeps us close. It is a reflection of those that are completed or think they are, in what we may lack. This is why you have pleasure in spending time with friends. Love is a different version of this.  No matter how much differently women and men reflect in the world, we fall in love with those that we believe may complete us. So if we go back to square one; everyone is nothing but a narcissist that is in love with themselves. What has been overlooked is that with love, the emotions that come with friendship, should be put in first place.  I think that nowadays what people cannot solve is this; hitting and falling back from walls built around imitation and lies. Until bruised and hurt. Maybe the yearning felt for pureness and realness will one day enable to knock down the walls. And those of us who are still surviving will continue on our journey. After all these sentences, I can seem to hear the whispers rising. You're right. There was no need for all these words. Actually, love is just a desire for one to burn their soul...


  • Translated by Oya Varol





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